Warning: This is just me ranting about birthdays. Next post will have no ranting or complaining I promise.
WOW I can't believe I turned 35 this month. This post is going to be some reminiscing which may turn a little sad for me. I am not sure why I always think birthdays are supposed to be special. I have been quite let down on my last few birthdays. Yes it has been nice to have the dozens of friendly greetings on facebook but the days themselves are just plain ordinary. It's not because of lack of gifts because I tell my family I don't want gifts it's more the fact that nobody seems to want to be with me on my birthday. I have one friend who has been great about my birthdays but that's it.
This year leading up to my birthday I had the same feelings again. This isn't where I was supposed to be when I turned 35. As a teenager I thought by 35 I would be happily married, with at least 1 child, and at a job I enjoy. I know that being happy is not set by these things but it would have been nice to have at least a job I enjoy by now. I know that being happy is not contingent on the fact of having a significant other but it would have been nice to have someone special to share my birthday with. I am working very hard at changing my attitude because I know people don't like hanging around people that are constantly depressed (I mentioned that in my last post also). But this year my birthday still got me down. I started it by helping at a mobile food pantry which was fulfilling but then I went to a casino where I lost $40. The money lost was expected because everyone loses at casinos. But the feelings got bad as the day went on and by the time I got to the theater for the second to last night of my first play I was just plain sad. I did get a nice surprise from my parents which cheered me up for a couple of minutes.
Oh well I have decided to stop celebrating birthdays.
On a happier note a volunteer hour update:
April Jaycees Egg Hunt - 3 hours, NIFB - 2 1/2 hours, and Sokol Special Number Comp. filming - 3 hours
May BCT library shoot - 2 hours, NIFB mobile food pantry - 3 hours, and Naper Settlement Civil War Days - 4 hours
Goal = 100 hours
To date = 23.5 hours
To go = 76.5 hours
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Only a couple of minutes? Really?
ReplyDeleteIt was actually longer than that but I was frustrated no one from the cast helped me clean up or acknowledged the cupcakes I brought.
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